Frustration....

So my search for a new bird keeps hitting walls. A door opens, and it's just slammed shut before I have a chance to do things. Like now.... there's a blue head pionus available for $1800 and I have like $400 to my name. It's going to take me 4 months to afford any large bird. The breeder I want to adopt from has increased the price of her white caps by $700 and her blue heads by $400. I keep asking my guardians when I'm getting a new Pionus and their answer is 'soon'. I am suffering emotionally because I want a bird 'Soon', but... yeah. SO MUCH FRUSTRATION. I know I have to be patient, but this has been going on for over a month. Almost two. Gawd dang it!

I plan on saving $200/month and buying stuff off Amazon with gift cards I've earned through survey companies. I have cash in a TFSA for when I need it. I have the bird's new cage set up. Damn it... I am frustrated, so much so that I want to cry. But I don't because that door will open up when the time is right. My mom is waiting for me to wait for Charlie (conure at 24 yrs this year) and Redshift (cockatiel at 23 yrs this year) to die. Not only do I have to save up, but I have to wait for the birds to kick the bucket, LOL!

I plan on naming the new bird Bulkhead or Vortex. Depends on how old the new bird is and if I like their old name. August was supposed to be 'Bulkhead', but I kept it August because he was already 13 yrs when I brought him home.

Ugh. I waaaaant, but I have to be patient. I HATE waiting and this is trying me, like wow.